Even More Paintings

I’ve been keeping up with my painting this week but I have to admit, I got a little discouraged a couple of days ago. I was working on something with a small building in it and I could not get the perspective right on that building. My left brain kept telling me that the roof was a big rectangle and it wouldn’t listen when my right brain tried to tell it that all I could see of it was a thin rhombus. I could not get my left brain to let go of that rectangle. I tried for a while and then I just got frustrated and gessoed over the whole canvas.

That was one of those times when my inner critic had a field day. It told me I could not paint at all. It told me that I would never be able to paint and I should just give up. It said that I wasn’t getting any better; I was just getting worse. It went on and on but it couldn’t stop me because I have a much louder voice in me that says, “You set a goal. You must do everything in your power to meet it.”

I still felt as if things were not going well, but I knew I had to keep painting. Even right up until this morning, I would look at all of the paintings I had done this week and see nothing but problems. I hated every one of them and the only reason I didn’t give up was that pesky goal I had set for my third blog year. I needed two paintings a day, so I had to create two paintings a day. I kept going.

When I started working on today’s paintings, I was worried that I would just be toughing out my painting time to meet my goal. I was afraid that I would hate my paintings. I was afraid that I would never like any of my paintings again. All those fears fell away when I finally picked up a brush and started painting. I got lost in the process and I had fun. When the paintings were finished, I liked them.

I brought them inside and put them with the other paintings I had done this week. Something in me had shifted while I was working on the new paintings. Now I could look at the others and see that they were not all completely lame. There were problems, sure, but there were also things that worked.

In seven days, I did fifteen paintings and only eleven of them are tiny. I got brave enough to try a 5” x 7”, a couple of 8” x 10”s and one 12” x 12”. I don’t hate these paintings. I look at them now and I see progress.

Six Tiny Paintings

Six Tiny Paintings


Five Tiny Paintings

Five Tiny Paintings


Two Trees

Two Trees


Two Trees Again

Two Trees Again


Magnolia Tree

Magnolia Tree


Maple Tree

Maple Tree


That’s all I need to see.

6 thoughts on “Even More Paintings

  1. releaf1954 Post author

    Thank you. The magnolia was the last one I did today, and I was surprised at how much I enjoyed it. I did the maple earlier in the week, but it shows up last because it was too big for the scanner.

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  2. Shearin Johnson

    Having the beautiful weather for these last 2 days must have helped. I have no artistic ability but I think your paintings are wonderful. And especially like the colors you use for the sky. Good luck as you continue towards your goal.

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    1. releaf1954 Post author

      Thank you. The pretty weather did help. The skies surprise me with how different they are from day to day — even hour by hour. I love the clear blues but the stormy skies are fun, too, because they’re so dramatic.

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